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Flight animal

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Dear Forum,

From the very beginning of this UNI and its Forum I've been a member (my Profile says: about 9 years!) and I loved every minute of it!
I haven't been active lately and feel I owe at least an explanation.
Late August I lost my husband, partner for over 40 years, father of our three children (now grown-up women). What happened in the 5 years of his illness and of course in the process of his dying, took its toll on me.
Lately I realised that all insecure factors had made a flight animal of me, when only temporarely. At a certain point I could imagine how a haunted dear or a horse separated from the herd must feel. Nothing is as it used to be and around any corner might be the next predator.
This resulting in quicker heartrate, sleeplessness, etc, short: feeling vulnarable
This is not me, it's part of my grief. I own my grief and I'm living through it with every breath, hoping to come out at some point stronger and wiser. 
The learning never ends.

Miriam


Debbie Roberts Loucks, USA
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Dear Miriam,
We love you and your presence here. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. This is a safe place. We all want the flight animal to feel less stress and less alone. We want to provide security and consistency here. We care and we want you to feel that, even with few words.   
Love, Debbie
JoHewittVINTA
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Hi Miriam. Thank you for sharing - not easy. Not so easy to respond either. Death invokes thoughts of our own mortality & we don't cope well. Too many well meaning but well worn phrases which become exhausting. So, flight animal, your online herd is here for you. 40 years is epic! So much strength to call upon, so much shared wisdom that will shine in each new day. Long illness is very hard, on both. But we hope to leave a legacy of who we really were, to support those we loved who remain. Cheers. Jo.
Kicki -- Sweden
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Miriam,
There has been way too much death and grief in my life this past couple of month. I share your pain and wish I could do more than just send cyber hugs, however warm and heartfelt.
Grief is the price we pay for love and it will take its time to do so. Thank you for letting us know - I have missed you! -  and I hope it makes you feel a bit lighter to know that we will help you share your burden.

Offering a lyric that has helped me through the worst.
You can hear it at Youtube too: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_VDkWqHkJ0


Andrea Berg - Sternenträumer
 
Du warst voller Fragen 
und du warst Magie 
wie ein Meer voller Farben 
meine Lieblingssinfonie 
du warst manchmal leise 
und wieder ziemlich laut 
ein Sommerregen auf der Haut 

Nein für mich bist du lebendig 
wo auch immer du jetzt bist 
wenn mein Herz dich heut 
auch tränenschwer vermisst 
wir sind ewig unzertrennlich 
und doch nur ein Hauch im Wind 
bis wir eines Tages Sternenträumer sind 
Sternenträumer sind... 

Wenn wir uns finden 
tanzen Drachen mit dem Wind 
mit brennenden Flügeln fühlen 
wir wie frei wir sind. 
Hinterm Regenbogen 
gibt es weder Leid noch Tod 
du hältst meine Hand und alles wird gut. 

Nein für mich bist du lebendig 
wo auch immer du jetzt bist 
wenn mein Herz dich heut auch tränenschwer vermisst 
wir sind ewig unzertrennlich 
und doch nur ein Hauch im Wind 
bis wir eines Tages Sternenträumer sind 
Sternenträumer sind... 

Nein für mich bist du lebendig 
wo auch immer du jetzt bist 
wenn mein Herz dich heut 
auch tränenschwer vermisst 
wir sind ewig unzertrennlich 
und doch nur ein Hauch im Wind 
bis wir eines Tages Sternenträumer sind 
Sternenträumer sind