Dear Forum,
From the very beginning of this UNI and its Forum I've been a member (my Profile says: about 9 years!) and I loved every minute of it!
I haven't been active lately and feel I owe at least an explanation.
Late August I lost my husband, partner for over 40 years, father of our three children (now grown-up women). What happened in the 5 years of his illness and of course in the process of his dying, took its toll on me.
Lately I realised that all insecure factors had made a flight animal of me, when only temporarely. At a certain point I could imagine how a haunted dear or a horse separated from the herd must feel. Nothing is as it used to be and around any corner might be the next predator.
This resulting in quicker heartrate, sleeplessness, etc, short: feeling vulnarable.
This is not me, it's part of my grief. I own my grief and I'm living through it with every breath, hoping to come out at some point stronger and wiser.
The learning never ends.
Miriam
From the very beginning of this UNI and its Forum I've been a member (my Profile says: about 9 years!) and I loved every minute of it!
I haven't been active lately and feel I owe at least an explanation.
Late August I lost my husband, partner for over 40 years, father of our three children (now grown-up women). What happened in the 5 years of his illness and of course in the process of his dying, took its toll on me.
Lately I realised that all insecure factors had made a flight animal of me, when only temporarely. At a certain point I could imagine how a haunted dear or a horse separated from the herd must feel. Nothing is as it used to be and around any corner might be the next predator.
This resulting in quicker heartrate, sleeplessness, etc, short: feeling vulnarable.
This is not me, it's part of my grief. I own my grief and I'm living through it with every breath, hoping to come out at some point stronger and wiser.
The learning never ends.
Miriam
We love you and your presence here. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. This is a safe place. We all want the flight animal to feel less stress and less alone. We want to provide security and consistency here. We care and we want you to feel that, even with few words.
Love, Debbie
There has been way too much death and grief in my life this past couple of month. I share your pain and wish I could do more than just send cyber hugs, however warm and heartfelt.
Grief is the price we pay for love and it will take its time to do so. Thank you for letting us know - I have missed you! - and I hope it makes you feel a bit lighter to know that we will help you share your burden.
Offering a lyric that has helped me through the worst.
You can hear it at Youtube too: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0_VDkWqHkJ0
Andrea Berg - Sternenträumer
Du warst voller Fragen
und du warst Magie
wie ein Meer voller Farben
meine Lieblingssinfonie
du warst manchmal leise
und wieder ziemlich laut
ein Sommerregen auf der Haut
Nein für mich bist du lebendig
wo auch immer du jetzt bist
wenn mein Herz dich heut
auch tränenschwer vermisst
wir sind ewig unzertrennlich
und doch nur ein Hauch im Wind
bis wir eines Tages Sternenträumer sind
Sternenträumer sind...
Wenn wir uns finden
tanzen Drachen mit dem Wind
mit brennenden Flügeln fühlen
wir wie frei wir sind.
Hinterm Regenbogen
gibt es weder Leid noch Tod
du hältst meine Hand und alles wird gut.
Nein für mich bist du lebendig
wo auch immer du jetzt bist
wenn mein Herz dich heut auch tränenschwer vermisst
wir sind ewig unzertrennlich
und doch nur ein Hauch im Wind
bis wir eines Tages Sternenträumer sind
Sternenträumer sind...
Nein für mich bist du lebendig
wo auch immer du jetzt bist
wenn mein Herz dich heut
auch tränenschwer vermisst
wir sind ewig unzertrennlich
und doch nur ein Hauch im Wind
bis wir eines Tages Sternenträumer sind
Sternenträumer sind